Give yourself some grace.
Being hard on yourself will never lead you to your growth.
Beating yourself up is a mechanism of the ego to keep you the same.
It doesn’t allow you to receive the lesson to its greatest potential.
It only makes you aware of the deeper belief systems and self-critical nature you have established as being part of a program.
A program that doesn’t allow you to shine.
It’s the one that tells you not to get too full of yourself or that you should always put others' needs above your own.
It has led you to people pleasing and looking for love from the lack you feel about yourself.
It’s the one that shames you and makes you feel bad for finding your way.
It’s also the one that doesn’t ever give you credit for how much you have grown.
If you want to heal this and move out of the program, you must first recognize the pattern and forgive yourself for the past.
You must ease up on the negative self-talk and give the shitty committee its walking papers.
Then, decide to focus on what is good about you and the contribution you can make to your own growth.
Ask yourself what you can do that will help you to step into the identity of someone you are proud of.
Are there things you keep putting off that would bring you a sense of fulfillment?
In what ways can you acknowledge how far you have come and let go of that old self that didn’t know better?
You are here to learn and grow.
Stop being mad at yourself for the process.
When you let go of the notion that you should have known better, then you can step into someone who does.
It’s important to start loving yourself, so that life can then show you the love that you are.
